When little Maggie first heard the story of Little Bo Peep and how she lost her sheep, she cried. When she was just two years old, she was gifted with a small, sweet cup with illustrations of Little Bo Peep and said sheep. Every time little Maggie saw this cup, she cried. She was so concerned for Little Bo, imagining how sad she must have been without her beloved sheep. Her momma had to put the cup away, because it upset her so.

This was the first indication of the depth of empathy and compassion that little Maggie felt. It is the hallmark story told by her momma to describe Maggie’s sensitivity from the very start.

Fast forward thirty years or so and momma Maggie is watching Curious George with her son, Mattie, also two years old. It is the Zoo Night episode and as usual Curious George is busy being curious – this time resulting in getting locked inside the zoo after dark. As he tries to find his way out he winds up finding the zookeeper’s keys and opening the doors to various animal cages; there are some silly altercations but he also gets chased by a rhino and meets a roaring lion. We talk about all of this as it happens, but it is just a bit too much for little Mattie. He gets a most concerned look on his face and begins to cry – in earnest – and through his crumpled face and tears, gasps to his momma:

“What happened?! Where did his papa go?!?”

They stop the video and talk about what’s happening. Mattie wants to watch more, but again cries, so concerned about the little monkey.   Momma Maggie is reminded of herself and her reaction to Little Bo Peep, seeing her own sensitivity to the circumstances of others in her son. It has been passed on, she realizes.

But she doesn’t discourage Mattie from watching Curious George. He asks to watch it again, and he cries, and they talk about it. Then he doesn’t want to watch this particular episode for a few days. In the meantime, he asks regularly about what happened, even wanting his momma to tell friends and family about it. Momma Maggie recounts the whole story again and again, patiently describing the plot in detail while also including Mattie in discussing his concern about what was sad or scary.

Eventually, he asks to watch Zoo Night again, and his momma asks if he’s sure. This time, they get through the whole episode with no tears, talking about it all the while. And Mattie is overjoyed when George is reunited with his papa (the man with the yellow hat) at the end.

Now Mattie watches this episode over and over AND OVER again.   He also likes to talk about what he would get to do if he were locked in the zoo at night (with his momma or papa, of course!).

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I can only imagine what has occurred inside Mattie through all of this. All I know is that I have helped him make sense of it. We processed his feelings together, so gently, again and again, and the result seems to be an internalized acceptance of the whole story. He watched something sad and scary happen; after talking about it enough it wasn’t sad or scary anymore. This seems to have built trust in our relationship and new confidence in Mattie.

While I’ve always viewed my own sensitivity and empathy as positive traits, I’ve also had a tendency to wear my heart on my sleeve a little too freely, and I’m not always good at recognizing the line between where I end and someone else begins. Perhaps I can help Mattie to see these tendencies as gifts, but also to build muscles of resiliency and create self-protective boundaries (though I’m still learning and building them myself).

Or maybe this is just an opportunity to witness my own compassionate response to my sensitive little boy – and to remember to save some of that compassion for myself.